Fun Fact: I’m a book worm!

I’ve known this about myself since I was little girl. My family always jokes about how I hated naps as a kid and would use that time to instead defiantly sit on my bed and read the latest children’s book. One of my favorite memories is of my grandfather, who I loved dearly, mailing me various Black History books during the summers. I’d like to think that my mom passed this love of books down to all four of us.

As I’ve grown older, reading has turned into an important facet of my self-care routine. As we’re moving swiftly through the first month of 2019, I’ve cracked open a new book from the recommendation of my roommate – thanks Justine! Emotionally Healthy Spirituality  written by Peter Scazzero, came at perfect timing. Generally, the beginning of the year provides us an opportunity to start afresh. To reflect on the year past and move forward into the new year with excitement. For me, combing through this book brings a catalyst for the above.

After reading Danielle’s latest (stop and go read if you haven’t already) “New Year, Same Soil” post and finishing The Problem of Emotionally Unhealthy Spiritually chapter in Scazzero’s book; I had to share a few thoughts for the year ahead.

Scazzero touches on the overwhelming feeling of guilt we encounter when we feel that we’re not doing and/or accomplishing “enough” in our lives. Unfortunately, this guilt can lead to discouragement, which then can manifest into isolation. I know this all too well. 

As I reflect on my own goals and aspirations for the year, I had to come face to face with the fact that most of my goals were tied to future feelings of accomplishments instead of content with what is already in my hands. If you’re anything like me, then you probably cringe at the word “contentment” or “content”. Our society has done an awesome job of forcing us to believe that if you’re not striving and thriving then you’re teetering the lines of “settling” or being content with mediocre.

We hit our heads on the walls of missed chances, failed goals and not being busy enough. This year, I’m aspiring to be kinder to myself and my goals by learning the beauty in contentment. So many times, we’ve leaned on the theory that if I’m not accomplishing or producing, then I’m not living. An excerpt from Scazzero that hit me right in the gut reads “We are human. When Paul said, “I can do all this through him who gives me strength (Philippians 4:13), the context was that of learning to be content in all circumstances. The strength he received from Christ was the strength to be content in the midst of them, to surrender to God’s loving will for him.”

I’ve read this text so many times but never in THIS way. Through all my goals and vision board aspirations for 2019, I will reflect on this revelation. God has provided me the strength to remain content through what may and what may not unfold during the year ahead. While practicing contentment, I will actively practice thankfulness and gratitude for all the amazing things that have already taken place in my life, the exciting things that are on the horizon and the still, uneventful moments that may lay in between it all.